Tuesday, December 9, 2014

Behind these eyes, there is madness

[written a couple weeks ago]

I live in a constant state of indecision. This is the one thing that I know. This evening, my mind can't stay focused on a movie about the full course of a relationship – origin to termination and everything in between – so I give in, pour my ears some Bitches Brew, and set out to chronicle my thoughts. First off, I'm committed here; I'm not skipping out on Mongolia, so don't start to plant that thought.
I can't stay focused. I'm watching a movie, but I pause to stoke the fire, cook a snack, then peruse the latest “news” on Facebook and news from Slate Magazine. The film has been pushed aside for now, replaced by this attempt at writing, but I still find myself wanting to learn more. Three articles are open in the other window, waiting to teach me about why solar technology is becoming more affordable, the biggest monopoly in the porn industry, and Alaska's highly-controversial “predator control” program. I realize that Davis' “Pharaoh's Dance” may not be conducive to my writing, but it perfectly represents the state of my mind: Thirteen musicians at times playing in sync, but often providing different themes, moods, and tempos all at once. The song has, amongst others, three keyboardists, two bassists, two drummers, and two percussionists.


I can't stop learning. The dangers of the internet present themselves much like the mirror of Erised: Some are fascinated by Hollywood drama, others by rambunctious felines, and I by all manner of things scientific, news-related, and unexpected. No matter the form, it is easy to get lost in the vastness of information.

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